Friday, July 19, 2013

I'm not gone ....

Here I am again, 
I'm not gone.
Here I am again,
living each day. 
Soon it will come
to fruitition,
what I'm planting 


Saturday, June 02, 2012

I will own my power ...

No more fear, no more doubts,
today myself and only myself I want
to be.
The struggle I leave behind,
 longing to be
 dwells no more in me,
"I am" and this truth
finally faces me.

Passive no more I need to be,
feeling guilty, ashamed and lacked.
The bellicose, contentious,
 aggressivenes of old ways
a space don't find,
the path of bitterness
fades away.

The clouts it's targets defines,
defying old doubts
contesting past thoughts,
"No more",
quietly I hear a sober voice inside.
"No more".

And tall I stand
abiding in this "I am"
without fear of someone else's thoughts,
validation or viewpoint.
Caring less and less
but of what I require
 to care more and more.
This "I" 
that I dearly hold. 


Saturday, March 03, 2012

Longings ...

A dream, a longing,
visited me last night,
in my old teacher,

My heart I poured,
my soul came out
revealing a yearning
very deep inside.

"Oh, I so much wish,
 so deeply desire,
to start again this life 
that breath in me".

He smiled,
an held my hand!


Friday, December 09, 2011


I need to mourn
for  what it was
and can never, never
be again.

The unmet needs,
the cold arms,
the empty souls
so full of need

Beings that couldn't 
give what I so much longed,
and that they themselves 
were so much in need. 

And in this mourning
the acceptance will come,
the search will end,
this never ending search, 
for what it was 
and is no more.

And I'll mourn
and woe and grief
my companions will be...
for a while.
And in the mourning
I will be healed. 
And with the healing
peace will come
and I'll be made whole. 


Sunday, October 16, 2011

Taking it all in....

Here I am,
hearing the  autumn wind
playing between the
trees' arms,
my face warmed by
brother sun rays.

Brother pine tree
standing tall and strong
beside me,
giving me cover,
protecting me.
Sister flower greeting
me at my feet.
The cool breeze
refreshing my soul
as well as my skin.
And looking  farther
along the road where
I stand still I think,

"All is well, indeed,
all is well".


Thursday, July 14, 2011


One day, one week,
a year perhaps...
is that all I need?

Even a second
a miracle can
bring forth
with a change
of heart,
my heart.

Give me now

with the fullness
of it's being.
Eyes opened
to the power
of it's might...
Today I change
what has been done,
changing the eyes
that saw all those wrongs.

I don't need tomorrows
when I have the silk
to braid today
what is there to be.
And I choose this second
what it's going to be
and just there...
by letting it go
let it be!

Today... is all I have,
would I want
something else?
Of all the time,
the seconds,
weeks or years,
give me today
only this instant
and I will inhabit it
with all my might
knowing in certainty
that it will be enough.

This ever present moment
will find me
shouting inside...
"I am eternal, I am,
I need nothing more!"


After reading,

"Time is a dressmaker specializing in alterations."

-Faith Baldwin

Sunday, March 06, 2011

Who I am....?

I am not the same from old,
I've been told not to start from
a negative point.
The need to start from this place
comes from what has came

What you see now is the result
from old and recent wounds,
where both opened me...
showed me...
guided me, to where ?

I'm no the same, I'm not ashamed
but less I once thought to be.
Needed too much, wanted too much,
gave too much, this now I know.

My fault it was, my need it was.
Not theirs, but mine the cause
and the effect
because we attract
and open doors for others to come
yet for them also to go
and leave with how much they can get.

What then, this I that now I am?


"The beginning of wisdom is to call things by their right names."

Chinese Proverbs