What is it...?

What is it that I want to prove?

To myself... to whom?

Wasted time ... wasted life

What is it,

little dragonfly...what is it?

The breath, the strength...

the days and time that goes by.

I don't want them to just fade away

in the absurdity of what?

To fly like you

been just who you are.

Being and been compared

to what?.

Who is to say who am I?

Who is to say what I can?

Who is this self willing to die?.

Yet to live is even more hard

Lets call this self... Yes! ... I'll call this self.

I'll summon her and looking in her eyes

in a whisper will ask

"Why are you holding me down?,

Don't you see that I want to live and fly?"

mcr

Again...

Doubts...

For the first time

in a long time

have come to me.

Uncertain

wishing them

not to be.

But they are

and here I am

what am I to do

to be?

A new phase

a stage

of what is

or has to be...

Will I be pushing

too hard?

Will I be fit?

What is it..

if it is?

mcr

Perceptions

Friend or foe...
what is it that I see?
Tell me little dragonfly
what will it be?

"It is for you to decide...
It is for you to see.
Within you is the lock
within you is the key..."

What should I look for?
What should I seek?
It appears to be real
all that I see.

"You make it real...
don't you see?
It is a matter of choice,
not theirs but yours."

It is in my hands

yet, more in my mind

it's up to me dragonfly.

I choose...
peace.

mcr

Hanging down...

"I am who I am,

not afraid anymore

of what I feel or of what

I know.

Doubts...

not as much as before.

Fears...

smaller, fainter,

even jokes!

Hanging down

from the tree,

trusting more

even me.

A long way, isn't it?

I myself ask myself.

A smile in my lips,

no words,

just a smile.

The answer is just this."

mcr

I've not forgotten...

Little dragonfly I have not forgotten you...

The work has been hard and silently inside.

New things are growing and becoming

for you, for me, for all to see...

How am I to share?

Is my question to the divine air.

When, will there be a time

for me to speak, to be, to share?

"It has been , it is , it will be ...",

I hear a quiet voice speaking to me.

"Let the process keep it's course

everything already is been done."

mcr

Errors...

Dear dragonfly hear me now...

I've heard that errors are but stepping stones

where our feet step and go.

Where to but, to beyond

the place our steps made us fall.

It hurts... it will pass.

Let me remember... not the pain.

Let me remember the love

that will help me correct my path.

mcr

Perfect...

" I am perfect as I am...

not in me ... But, in someone

much more greater than myself. "

mcr

You are not alone...

" In a world

where hopelessness

seems to prevail,

it is important to know

that we are not alone..."

mcr

" What is it that you want me to be?,

oh little dragonfly.

Lots of voices in my head keeps

the peace so far from me.

This and so many constructs

of the mind...

what is it little dragonfly...?

To search...to do... to rest...

to let all go?

My throat is in pain

there's a voice asking to come out.

What holds me down,

and pin me on the wall?

What is it dragonfly

that I want to shout?

Tell me, help me to see...

hover above and inside of me.

Still my mind, my heart and my soul.

While the wounded path of this lonely road

I'll walk with your wings

beating over me."

mcr

When is a change needed...?

" When it's needed..."

mcr

A dragonfly visited me ...

" You came
you entered...
What do you wanted me
to hear?
Hovering and flying,
looking for my
atention might it be?

'Just be yourself ',

it seemed to be the words.

Flying around the dojo space

as a blessing poured from

the sky.

Nothing more but to just be myself.

The space is mine, the space is there

to just be

and enjoy what is. "

mcr

Let's pray....

" Let us pray for those in need,

so their heart now be at peace.

Every hurt and soreness be

with love and compassion completly healed.

Let the hunger, the thirst

be satisfied

not with words and wishes alone.

Let their bodies and their souls

receive the bread each of them long.

It's not time to justify, to blame or judge

nor search to understand.

Only love will heal, will feed,

will get us over

this troublesome time."

mcr

Empty spaces...

" There are no empty spaces...

only spaces... full of possibilities. "

mcr

Beating wings....

" Beating wings,

hovering flight

just above my soul.

The stillness

over me,

the humming

I just hear.

Stirs the soul

within.

So much... movement.

And yet, ...no movement.

This secret I must learn

to overcome, to beat and conquer

all obstacles in the way.

Archaic being

from ancient times

keep hovering over me.

The stillness... the movement

I learn from you

winged being

of dated times."

mcr

First and second...

The first step after doing something,

anything is..

to let go...

The second...

let God...!

mcr

Quantum leap forward

" The heaviness of what we leave behind...

this feeling... so strange.

I'm out there but still...

feeling the grip of what is behind.

I want to extend, to move forward and beyond,

but my feet are here...

with all the heaviness of what is

has been...?

My feet are here...

and from here I fly..."

mcr

The difference...

" I want to make a difference...",

my heart says.

"You have to be the difference",

my soul whispers .

"Would you be there for me?",

my heart asks.

" I am the difference" ,

she responds back.

mcr

Beginnings...

" Show me your face dragonfly...

let me hear your voice...

Spread your wings above my soul,

and your words I'll dare to share...

mcr